Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Kristi Said It Best...
Well, Grace must be all over me to move away because already--in just one day--I have two large boxes of books ready to take to that tiny (run-on-the-honor-system) book cabin in Childs, NY. Two boxes! And yesterday we got rid of my curbside-blessing leather Ralph Lauren chair and I moved a bistro set from our front porch to our patio. And cleaned and decluttered and--
Only with much Grace can I accomplish those sorts of things.
And then this morning Kristi's comments to my last post echoed so perfectly what I've meditated upon for two weeks:
"But it calls for putting too much energy into the work of the farm, and I think you need your energy in other places..."
While I prepared for our Nevada friends' visit I wanted so much to finish some fun decorating projects inside the house, yet my tiredness from all the yard work interfered. And that got me thinking--is a huge yard where I want to spend the bulk of my energy? Do I want to be a slave to a farm--really?
And well, my answers all came in various forms of, "No."
Truthfully? I'd rather be creative around the house. And read good books. Take long, fun drives with Tom. Write in this blog and perhaps write a book. Grow a small garden. Maybe do some volunteer work and invite friends over to 'get away from it all,' being more concerned with their welfare than my own energy depletion.
And yesterday I finally became brave enough to make a choice which better fits me.
What a relief already. Already I'm feeling less overwhelmed--and considering moving involves such stress--well, that's surely saying something! Facing moving to a whole other state, readying and selling this house and all that goes with that--at this moment--sounds more like a stroll in the park than running this farm for another year.
You realize God's often behind such a nonsensical thing when a person feels that crazy way, don't you? :)
"A man's steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand his own way?" ... Proverbs 20:24
(Or as the New Living Translation says, "The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?")
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