"And he gives grace generously. As the Scriptures say, “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.” ... James 4:6
I didn't tell you something.
Twice this year I sent Tom links to local (nearly perfect)houses for sale and both times he wrote, "We should go for it! Want me to set up an appointment for when I get off work today?"
But in each case I emailed back, "Nah. When you get home I'll show you my Why We Cannot Move list. But thanks, anyway, for considering it."
Sigh. And both houses cost about what we'd get for ours. Cheap. シ
For the nearly 8 years we've lived at Hobbit Cottage, 4 of those I've imagined moving to a blank canvas house (with storage!) so I could start all over decorating-wise.
Remember those scenes in It's A Wonderful Life where Mary's up on a ladder painting, wallpapering, having a marvelous time? Well, for 37 years (or so) that was me. And as I've visited the earliest pages of my blog so to tweak them, I've watched from doorways that younger Debra up on her trusty aluminum step-stool ladder and felt, well, awe (she did what in just one day?).
And sadness, also. That Debra? She's not here anymore. Today she's unable to decorate her little heart out. She just can't.
And Tom needs another shoulder surgery (plus, his scoliosis and herniated discs aren't exactly better) and if we moved, even with professional movers, he'd help too much. Like last time, back in 2011 when for two weeks afterward, he was ill.
There's more, but you know, it's that part about staying here for Tom's sake which finally set me down at acceptance. I told God, "If it's for Tom that we stay here, at least for now? Why, I can do that. Grace cushions those sacrifices I make for him. Love makes them not hard for me."
Also, God reminded me of those days I work a bit harder and by 5:00 pm I'm stiff, bent in half,
And so finally--finally--the new house dream, died. And I mean died-died. Took 4 long years (and yeah, often painful ones as they are whenever we want what God doesn't want for us), but it stopped breathing.
Oh, perhaps some year we'll make one more move, like, into an assisted living apartment. Yet at that time ol' Debra won't be up on any ladders slapping paint onto walls there, either.
And this is what I'm still learning in layers:
Some Life seasons are easy to release, yet others are hard, especially when they lasted decades, were huge parts of who God made us and kept us happily going even during stormy times.
But when we truly release them at God's request? He replaces them with sweet new dreams, ones which even now, yes! We can still do, and with a joy only Grace provides.
Grace. She splashes color, happiness and contentment over everything God calls us to do. Yes, even now during these later autumn years.
And oh, to follow her so closely we can reach for her strong fingers at anytime we need her help.
Respect your seasons! Pay attention to their details, do what you have the energy, grace and promptings to do while you still can.
Or as Ann Kiemel Anderson said--
"I would have missed out on so many things in Life if I had not simply done them."
"Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keeps the law, happy is he." ... Proverbs 29:18
My dear friend, Wilma, said this Garfield cartoon reminded her of me--
--and I feel incredibly honored, not to mention, understood.
Brighten the corner where you are, Everyone! And this, oh yes, remember this--
"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you because he trusts in you." ...Isaiah 26:3
(Thank-you much, Wilma!)
Okay, now this new tv ad was just too cute!
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"Master," said John, "we saw someone driving out demons in your name and we tried to stop him, because he is not one of us." "Do not stop him," Jesus said, "for whoever is not against you is for you." ... Luke 9:49,50