Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Let It Go? Let *What* Go?


"...let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." ... Hebrews 12:1

Nearly every day I hear someone, somewhere, say, "Just let it go." I hate to see it become such a glib, trite saying, because letting go is vital--it has basically saved my life.

I can't afford to hold onto heavy things--I have a race to run. I don't want to be like a runner running a race in which he, alone, is trying to run while holding a large television set against his chest as everyone else flashes right past him because their hands are free.

Let it go.... let it go...

I've had to let go of thinking I am always right... that there is only one way to learn and do and see something... that it's just fine to always express my opionions about other peoples' choices...

I've had to let go of expecting too much from other people... of blaming others for my own actions... of expecting more from myself than even God is expecting...

I've had to let go of unforgiveness and nagging people into making changes... and whining to others how I have been wronged... of being led and directed by my emotions rather than by Truth...

I've had to let go of doing things my way when my way appeared to make lots more sense than God's...

I've had to let go of the past... and perfectionism, criticism, legalism... and fear and worry and dread... and thinking that, because my blog post received no comments, it must have been rotten...

I've had to let go of thinking I will always be the same old way I am today...

I've had to let go of trying to run away from myself and, instead, though horrified, face what God wanted me to face... and then repent for it so that He could then proceed to change me.

... and I am still letting go... letting go is so daily and takes years, yes, yet the freedom is progressive daily, too... and the race is becoming easier without that huge television-like-burden... that burden of self which slows me down and keeps me from the joy of running free.

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"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things." I Corinthians 13:11

"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." John 8:32

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