Thursday, November 01, 2007
Retiring The List
So there I was in my parents' living room last week with my sister and my mom's two brothers and their wives who I'd not seen in 30 years. The room was quiet, everybody was staring at me, so my aunt turned and asked me if I worked. I smiled and gave her my standard answer, "I work at home. I'm a happy homemaker."
Wham. The usual panicky silence fell. You know, that's when people start wondering, "Do they even make those anymore? What kinds of questions do you ask a 'happy homemaker,' anyway?," and, "Boy, is this gonna be a long afternoon..."
So my sister (who has a real job and a real life and grandkids and is a newlywed and plays piano at church and teaches piano in her spare time)piped up and said, "Oh, Debra has a blog, too, and lots of people read it." She gave me that 'come on, keep going' signal with her hands and she nodded with her head like, "come on, kid. Stand up for yourself! Don't you want to give them the list of all you do?"
Ah, The List... The List you read off to everyone to prove just how busy you are and how vital to the world's ability to keep spinning.
I remember The List. I used to have mine memorized and could rattle it off to you at any insecure moment... and make you sorry you even asked.
But I gave it up years ago. It doesn't matter now that people know the 'important' things I'm doing. All that matters to me is that I spend time with God each day learning to love Him better. And that I obey Him in the little things He asks me to do and be... and to live simply, as well. And that I learn to love others better, too.
But it's kinda hard to work that into most conversations.
Yet, that's ok. I'd rather hear other peoples' stories, and I think, from what I've read, most people would rather tell their own stories to a good listener, anyway. Besides, I prefer saving my own stories for the times God nudges me to share them. His timing is ever so much better than mine. His words are a zillion times better than mine, too, and what I'm aiming for is to speak those, instead, because, after all--
"...A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in pictures of silver."... Proverbs 25:11
... and that sounds so very good to me.