Monday, May 14, 2007

Peeking Into The Career Box


So there I was, a sophomore in high school during career week. You know, those days when, at 15, you were supposed to decide what you wanted to be for the rest of your whole life. You just (according to the teacher) walked over to the career box, thumbed through a few career cards and poof! Picked a life-long career. And then during the weekend you were supposed to find someone already working in your chosen line of work, interview them, and hand in the interview along with a few of your own thoughts.

Simple.

Huh.

Want to know the career I hoped to find in the career box? You'll never guess, so I will tell you.

I hoped to find a hermit card in there. (I know... wild, huh?)

But there weren't any hermit career cards in that box. I know--I checked.

Yes, at 15 I was already tired of dealing with people, especially people who made me feel like I'd been shoved out of a space ship from Mars. People who criticized me for being different and hard to understand. People who didn't act the way I thought they should. Just whole crowds of people because, basically, aside from a few friends, I just wanted, at 15, to be left alone.

And well, all these years later I still love spending time alone--as long as it's kept in balance. Anything taken out of balance no longer feels like a good thing. I'm a firm believer in too much of a good thing becomes a bad thing.

Some parts of myself haven't changed much since high school. Other parts have grown and changed immensely for the good--and those are the things I give credit to God for, because only He can change the pathetic parts of me... the parts which are not pleasing to Him... the parts which are not born of that 1st Corinthians 13 type of love He wants me to show to others.

Anyway, I just thought I'd share a smile with you this Monday morning. Imagine--wanting to be a real-live hermit at 15 and actually picturing myself in a secluded little cabin up in the woods away from everyone, growing my own food and cutting my own fuel. Alone. Imagine!

All I can say is that I'm so glad that God had a totally different plan.


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Anyone else out there who has, at one time or another, wanted to choose the hermit career card?

1 comment:

Pearl said...

Well the whole post on being a hermit made me gasp a few times out loud! Because yes I've been thinking of it my whole life! Were so much alike you and I, after reading your blog for the last few months I feel we are kindred spirits. I'm so fortunate to have been able to find your blog and realize I'm not alone out here in my thinking. Thanks for your honesty, your so brave and I admire that. Happy life to you and your husband. Pearl