So. I'll bet you didn't realize I'd been conducting an experiment upon my brain. No? Well, since I didn't even realize that till yesterday, I'm not surprised you didn't know.
See, for lots of years I've had either two cups of homemade hot chocolate each day or one cup and then one cup of decaf coffee. Well, two weeks ago I ran out of both baking cocoa and decaf simultaneously(!) so, while waiting for baking cocoa to go on sale, I'd been using some (kinda nasty-tasting) carob powder which Naomi gave us.
Then uh-oh... My most faithful readers will remember that these past two weeks (or four, actually) have been rather awful circumstance-wise for Tom and me. And hey--I've probably just told you half of what's gone on. But I've not told you how often I've felt like 'fainting in my head,' you know, like in a biblical sense--
"And let us not be weary in well-doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." ... Galations 6:9
The 'faint not' doesn't actually mean passing-out, but rather, in our heads thinking thoughts like, "So what bad thing is gonna happen next around here? Why me? I am sick and tired of things going wrong. When is something good gonna happen--or will it? I just can't handle one more piece of bad news. Tomorrow I think I'll stay in bed with the covers over my head."
You know. Pathetic, ungodly thoughts like those.
And so, pretty much these past two weeks (especially) I've been asking myself, "Why aren't I handling all this well the way I used to? Why all this floundering around inside my head, especially when I've been making a point to become more conscientious to do things the way God's asking me to? Where did I go wrong?"
Well, this will sound stupid, but the answer to that last question? I stopped drinking my daily cups of hot chocolate. That's where I went wrong. Just the absence of that tad of caffeine was messing my brain up royally. (I can't drink even one-quarter of a cup of regular coffee, for it gives me headaches and keeps me awake, but the caffeine in chocolate or the tiny bit in decaf help me. Much.)
And I know, I know! Sounds dumb, but yesterday both Tom and I went to the supermarket (since we couldn't find anything else fun to do--see my last post) and I finally bought some baking cocoa, at full-price for the store brand, even (and cat food, too, but hey, that has nothing to do with this story.). Then at home, a few hours apart, I made two cups of hot chocolate and oh. My. Goodness. The Happy Levels in my head all came up to even, straight-across normal--or above. Just picture your sound control panel on your computer with all the levels raised across the top. It's like that inside my head now.
And Life is good again. My yard doesn't look too big. My To Do List doesn't feel impossible. No, I feel like I can leap over walls, do whatever God asks and face the hard stuff ahead, too.
Sometimes you've just gotta find what works for you and stick with it. Even if it appears to work only for you. Even if it appears silly to other people. As long as it has God's blessing, just do it.
Rita asked for my hot chocolate recipe, so here you go (all measurements are approximate. Just fiddle around till you find what tastes best for you).
Debra's Hot Chocolate
Into one old-fashioned (smallish by Today's standards) coffee mug add:
1 mounded teaspoon baking cocoa powder
1 teaspoon sugar
2 drops stevia (optional)
1 - 2 tablespoons flavored creamer
2 - 3 tablespoons milk
Then add enough boiling water to fill the rest of the cup.
Enjoy (twice a day to keep you happy...heh...).
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