"But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere." James 3:17
Well, Tom bought that expensive new car and Penny Pincher Debra freaked-out (more than I told you, but hey, it's my blog and my reputation. er hem).
Anyway, I went all must-cut-back-on-future-purchases! Must-not-go-broke! Must-not-spend-our-savings-set-aside-for-the-end-of-the-world!
I imagined a dark future of this and felt royally deprived. Moody. Bummed-out.
By Wednesday I woke up.
I realized rather than using wisdom, I was exercising fear. Fear that if I spent anything, even a reasonable amount, on myself or our house, well, our checking account would sink like the Titanic. And we'd drown in debt (and regret).
Tsk. Tsk. And only when I realized/admitted my folly, was God able to remind me (via various sources) that it's possible to be overly-cautious, too independent and to doubt His provision. That, yes, perhaps Tom's huge purchase was ill-timed, yet there's sowing and reaping and--as long as I keep sowing good things for other folks--He'll make sure I reap good things, myself.
Then I recalled how that rare redecorating season began a couple weeks ago. Would I now toss away that grace/strength/creativity because of fear of lack? Or would I proceed in making purchases using trust (and wisdom, of course)?
Well, I've read my own blog long enough to know what to do. :) If I ignore Grace's timing, all other tasks will feel like struggle. Strength-zapping, must-force-everything, no-delight struggle.
And who wants to live that way? Not me, certainly.
So here I go, out on the wire of faith and trust, but holding hands with God and Grace. The only way to proceed in faith.
I've not hung the wallpaper in our bathroom yet (I've got my excuses, trust me). But ideas for that whole redecorating project are pouring in.
As a reminder, here's the wallpaper:
And this morning, I ordered this from Ebay:
And this switch plate which will go on a plain grey wall:
I'll have a few dusty-rose accents in the bathroom, as well, and will let you know
if when my bathroom redo actually comes together.
These things take time, ya know. :)
"Be sober [well balanced and self-disciplined], be alert cautious at all times. That enemy of yours, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion [fiercely hungry], seeking someone to devour." ... 1 Peter 5:8
Speaking of 'the end of the world'... Because I spent the last year prepping grocery-wise, we'll need to spend very little money on food. Aren't you glad God knows the future and can tell us the right time to do things?
Today would have been my grandmother's 103rd birthday. Oh how clearly and fondly I remember one born so very long ago... Happy birthday, Grandma. I can't wait to see you again!
My oh my.... Have you ever heard this instrumental song? Wow. Stopped me in my tracks in our kitchen moments ago. Just had to share. (The visual scenery of the video is gorgeous, also.)