Thursday, September 13, 2007
I'll Be Glad When....
Probably you--or someone you know--often says, "I'll be glad when...."
You know, "I'll be glad when this day is over." ...or...
"I'll be glad when my kids are in school." Or, "I'll be glad when my kids are out of school."
"I'll be glad when we have more money." "I'll be glad when I feel better."
"I'll be glad when winter/summer/spring/fall is over." Or, "I'll be glad when we go on vacation... (or when we get home from vacation...)"
"I'll be glad when I'm home from the dentist...... or when we have a better house/car/computer/Life... or when my kids get married/pregnant/divorced/remarried..."
And on and on for as long as eternity lasts.
Me? I often used to say, "I'll be glad when..." But now I just enjoy being glad today. Even while things are imperfect. Up in the air. Unsettled.
I've learned that if I wait to have all my ducks in a row--if I wait to be glad only when everything is just the way I like it--well, most likely, I'll never be glad.
And how awful would that be? To go through life never, or even just seldom, feeling glad? To me, that's a new definition of the word 'tragedy':
Tragedy-- living whole decades of ones life always putting off gladness for a supposedly better time. And then dying, never realizing gladness was like gratitude and was available thousands of days... and that gratitude could have been the beginning of feeling better and more hopeful.
Oh my, that's much too large a risk for me to take. I think I'll keep on choosing to just be glad in this moment--anyway.