So! Winter is losing its grasp around here, albeit s-l-o-w-l-y (a mere 13 degrees when I awoke this morning). But we've had four days of bright sunshine and I've basked in it upon our enclosed front porch while otherwise surrounded by snow. As long as there's sun, though, I'm fine.
Which concerns me.
This winter showed me I wasn't the Miss Strong Christian I supposed myself to be. And yes, I faced a lot of challenges and often felt like the heads in that carnival game which rise whoosh! out of various holes, only to be pounded with a hammer by the guy playing the game. Raise my head, get pounded. Raise my head, get pounded.
But even so, oh the mistakes I made this winter! Gah. I stayed home too much, for one thing. In fact, last week I told Tom that our house was feelin' like Purgatory. Like we are stuck here, unable to get out, unlikely to ever move on.
Heh. Yes, I said that.
I complained way too much. Nagged poor ol' Tom (oh, all those times I freaked-out when he'd buy $10 worth of salsa, chilis and tortillas). And I got too obsessed about becoming a Coupon Queen and making money online, too. In fact, after Tom's former co-worker did our taxes for us last week, we discovered our return will be three times greater than what we'd assumed. Three times greater! So oh dear, I had to apologize to God--again--for acting like--if He didn't have my help--well, He'd have a hard time providing for us.
Yet most of all? Most of all I think I failed Winter 101 this year because I forgot to have fun. Yes, I really do believe that's what sunk me the most. Oh, how we need fun in our daily lives! Of course, hearing that unnerves super-ultra-religious folks, but let them be unnerved. I believe in fun and I believe God believes we should have lots of it. That fun should spring out of the joy He gives us, joy being quite important since it's from joy where we get our strength.
So there you go. I may have failed Winter, but rather than hang my head about it all condemned-wise (slowing down any further growth), I'm aiming to pass Springtime with bright, flying colors and lots and lots of fun thrown in, too. I have whole months' worth of fun to make up for!