Saturday, February 02, 2008
Ok. I just know that some of y'all are wondering if I miss my old house, the one I lived in nearly 15 years... the one whose each and every wall I lovingly painted.
Truthfully? I don't miss it. Oh, perhaps the sunroom, especially on these dark winter days. That room was nearly half-made of windows so always there was a 'certain slant of light' in there, dark days or sunny. But no, I was so ready to move out. To move on to something new, even something tiny and temporary. The divine discontent within me was maddening (well, almost) and I so needed a change.
When God wants to change either our circumstances or something inside us, we need to cooperate or else very little will feel right ever after. I could have clung to (and refused to leave) that much larger, more comfortable house, but I'd not have been as happy and contented as I am in our tiny (tiny!) cottage apartment. (And frankly, we do call it a cottage, but it doesn't actually resemble one. Only to us--only in our hearts.)
I mean, the single mom behind us comes homes drunk on weekend mornings around 4:30 with at least three noisy friends, but you know? She's someone to pray for--someone for whom to do kind anonymous deeds. That's how I see her and her family, the one which tends to sound like a preschool is going on after school right outside our doorway.
And there's another single mom upstairs, with three teens, but they are nearly always surprisingly quiet up there. And when I see her outside, I always must be the first to say hello--I think she's shy and oh my! I understand shy people after having been one for so very long. So I say hello first and usually make a little remark if she's not in a hurry rushing past me. Which usually she is.
Do I miss my old, quiet, retro, sweet house, the one with 14 years of amazing memories? Nope. I'm too busy enjoying this new phase God led us to by way of divine discontent. It's an interesting place, another place of learning and I'm in no hurry to move away.
And trust me, I am so not looking back, either. Only ahead to new adventures.
P.S. Did anyone else love LOST as much as I did? Too many commercial breaks....argh... but I loved every minute of the long-waited-for episode--even the states of confusion this show puts me in. :)