"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." ---John 14:6
Friday, January 31, 2020
After All These Years Still In the Backseat, Believing.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope."... Romans 15:13
Remember how, in Miracle on 34th Street, (adorable) Natalie Wood asks Kris Kringle for the magazine house she'd clipped and after not receiving it, she's in the backseat, tired, but trying to stay positive, repeating, "I believe, I believe, I believe..."?
Well, this past Monday that was me. ッ
All weekend I prayed in total faith for Tom's recovery, yet each time he called? He sounded worse. And I'd feel genuine surprise because, hey! My faith was so high. I'd watched a ton of healing testimonies lately and I was psyched. Prepared. I'd spoken aloud lots of prayers and declarations.
God has so healed me in the area of worry, especially when, years ago, I got sick of it. Often that's what it takes for deliverance in any area: we must become sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. Sick of doubting that God can change us. Sick of sin.
Anyway. By Monday night Tom's voice was so raspy I could barely understand him.
And oh my, time again to be all Natalie Wood-ish. I smiled, though. Thought of her in that backseat and then repeated, "I believe, I believe, I believe."
And truly, I did.
Oh, of course by that night my head felt tired after believing all weekend, but you know? Days of strenuous believing are totally different than the exhaustion of Worried Days.
I mean, worry can:
Make us sick.
Paralyze us, (rather like zombies).
Color our perspective dark. Ugly.
Make us hopeless. Afraid. Sorry examples.
And God cannot bless our worry. Certainly can't condone it. But He strengthens us in our believing! Give Him real faith and He'll mold that into something strong to support us.
Last night I went to bed and thought, "Good gracious, Debra. This 2020 will mark the 50th year since you met Jesus. Oh, how much work He's sown into you!
But oh dear, how much farther along could you be if you'd been more willing to change? Skipped the excuses? The procrastination?" Gulp.
Fifty years in the backseat of this crazy journey with Jesus. Given all that time and those adventures? Yeah, I should be father along, but oh how grateful I am that not once has He yanked open the door and walked away in frustration.
Nor will He as long as I keep trusting. Believing.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." ...Philippians 4:6,7
"Worry implies we don't trust that God is quite big enough." ---Francis Chan
Speaking of making excuses.....
Oh! I've watched hundreds of Youtube videos, but one of the best ones, ever? This one. Watch it and all your excuses will fly away, whether you're black or white. ツ
Larry Elder--wish I'd met him sooner.
(If you only have 4 or so minutes, start at 11:00, ok?)
How's Tom feeling? So much better. Thanks again for your prayers!
"For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15