Thursday, June 11, 2026

If You Can, Do It Now

(The Reno, NV train station. One of my very favorite photos.)

"You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out."   --- Deuteronomy 28:6


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Still here!

Mainly I've simply been celebrating feeling soo much better. You know, having little gratitude parties on the red couch while watching Youtube videos and, lately, reading old Mary Jane's Farm magazines. Oh, and gardening. Lots of morning sit-down-gardening for just minutes, but hey, it adds up.

And also? I'm again counting my blessings for, years ago, not procrastinating what the Holy Spirit nudged me to do. Why? Because these past 7 months I pretty much desired to do nothing but lay around and heal.

And although during those months the house was, er, a mess, at least I could lay on the red couch (or on a hospital table-like bed) and rejoice that I'd done tasks (or traveled) over the past years because Honey, no way could I do any of it now. 

Plus, I had those memories to pleasantly mull over while I could only lounge around.

Examples?

Tom and I bought that tiny farm and lived our farming dreams right on the cusp before we could no longer handle it. Often, I recalled my favorite farm memories while recuperating from internal radiation surgeries when I could only lay on my back in recovery.

There were our camping trips, motel stays and later? The train travel across the country--4 times. Could we do all that now? Most likely, uh, no. Our train season, as the farm one, is over.

Yet how good to finally accept that seasons in our lives are a thing. They come and go and aren't meant to cling to in sadness when the gate of lovely seasons slams shut. Instead, they're to be treasured with hope that new seasons, though very different, will be just as lovely.

Years ago, I put together a quasi capsule wardrobe. During these months I could barely dress myself, but at least my clothes looked decent. ツ I barely thought about what I wore, but it came together because I'd planned it all out during my normal years.

The garden beds I put in and all the perennials I planted. The decorating of my home over the past 14 years. The decluttering of 10 things weekly which I began in 2019. My book collection (tho' oddly, I didn't feel like reading). The arranging of having groceries delivered from Aldi each week.


On and on it goes. All those things the Holy Spirit said, "Do it now," probably adding, "while you still can." But that last part is hard to listen to, right? We want to believe we'll be strong and healthy forever.

Anyway, just some notes for you today, things I've considered many hours. And really, color me so grateful that God alerted me ahead of time, even though I didn't have a clue how it would all piece together during these difficult months of my life.

He is so good.





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And as I wrote at Facebook:


So yesterday was the first time this year that I walked down to the Salv. Army drop-off. I made it back home ok, but just barely. heh.
Anyway, one hour later, Tom and I were sitting here and we heard (and felt) a big boom! We ran to the windows and saw that Neighbor Sue's elm tree had lost a HUGE branch, probably with a 30-inch circumference at the tree's connection. It had tons of smaller branches shooting off of it.
Fortunately it didn't hit her house, but it fell across the sidewalk and street, and even brought down a couple wires from the pole, (one connected to our house, an old phone line).
Wow, only an hour before I'd walked that sidewalk and would've been killed had the tree fallen on me. Color both Tom and myself thankful for God's protection and listening to the Holy Spirit rather than procrastinating my walk just one more hour.


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Some of my perennials:

Mint
Snow in summer
Peonies
Oregano
Clematis
Sun drops
Forget me nots (tho' not a true perennial, it acts like one)
Chives
A climbing rose
Daylilies, 2 kinds
Strawberries
Sweet woodruff and another ground cover whose name I can't recall.
And white sweet alyssum

Oh, and a very special thanks to each of you who commented after my last post. As usual, it's taking me forever to get over there and thank you! All the time, I read all your comments and appreciate each one.


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More movies we've enjoyed lately. 


Savannah  (can't believe we just now saw this Jim Caviezel film. It is a sad one, ok, but then it's a true story so what are ya gonna do?)  ツ

Mrs. Lowry and Son  (another true story, some difficult moments, but still inspiring)

The Rendevous  (we were surprised this had basically no 'language'!)







Did anyone watch any of the movies I recommended last time?


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God's timing? Perfect. Always.




Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. *** "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

Friday, May 22, 2026

A Progress Report and Lots of Things for You to Watch



"Give thanks to the Lord for He is good. His loving devotion endures forever."   --- Psalm 136:1

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Still here!

Yet only recently has ol' Debra returned to her normal self. My, but it's odd living inside a body and mind which you don't recognize-- fuzzy-headed, a feeling of not wanting to do what you once did and legs which feel 'iffy'.

But again, I'm slowly coming back. 

Though ok, a bit tweaked after having lived with this stranger for 6 months. I'm more filled with gratitude for all the healthy decades God gave me and full of compassion for others who, also, are ill. I understand their hardships much better now, so color me thankful.

Also? I'm back to reading books, decluttering, feeding the outside birds and gardening. Just step by step, ok. But whew, took forever to return there and required much patience and forgiveness of myself while waiting. 

Anyway! I've watched tons of lovely shows since December. These have felt like gifts from God (I've even left out many!). We subbed to Hallmark Plus during Dec. and Jan.--all those movies and series felt like much needed daily medicine.

So here you go, just a sampling, below, of movies and videos which helped encourage me these past difficult months. It's as though God made certain I discovered them.





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Texas Country Reporter. Oh my, I've probably watched 50 of these, that is, the ones before Bob and Kelli retired. Did you enjoy Charles Kuralt's program? Guaranteed (well...) you'll love these; even Bob's voice is similar. But warning: These videos are highly addictive and I'm not surprised they've run for over 50 years.






The Lady, The Wolf and the Mountains  (Loved this one so much, I bought her book on Kindle and devoured it in 2 days.)





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Other Youtube Videos:

A Single Woman's Tiny Home  (I liked her decor)






The Well Studio  (these are incredibly comforting)



Movies We Enjoyed:


Marriage Made In Heaven (one of the most unique movies I've seen)
Runt  (adorable Australian girl and dog story)
Still Mine (a lesson for not waiting too late to prepare for old age)
Great Gilly Hopkins  (an old-fashioned film and Kathy Bates is marvelous as always)
I Can Only Imagine 2
Wedding Bells (w/ Danica McKellar. Can be watched on Youtube)





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And as always, a huge thanks to those of you who've shown me you care all these months!







Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. *** "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15

Friday, March 27, 2026

Pleasant Times Along the Cancer Journey



"Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever!" --- Psalm 107:1


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The past four months of cancer treatments? ** 

Of course, some days felt dark. Grace-less. Scary. Yet, those often served to make any special, healing times shine like miracles.

Like, the silent reflux worsened (I'll spare you the details), but finally, with just one slippery elm pill daily, it cleared up. No throat or digestive problems and I could return to my full gluten-free diet. Such. A. Miracle.

So much was snatched from me--my health, freedom, regular schedule, choices, desires to do nearly anything normal, etc.,-- so food became important, like the one choice left. That is, once I made peace with becoming gluten intolerant (a test, indeed. Made me grumpy until I began searching online for gluten free foods I liked).

The best thing about chemo days? Their breakfasts and lunches. Soo good. Really. The gluten-free vegetable lasagna--wow.


Facebook became a huge encouragement and I discovered, more than before, who is in 'my village'. I'd put out my prayer requests and friends quickly responded. They rejoiced with me over my victories, sympathized with my difficulties and left kind words and help in Messenger. 

These encouragers were a vital connection to the friendly outside world and oh-so appreciated. 


Speaking of Facebook, here are 3 short posts I shared-- 

For fellow lovers of books: Yesterday sitting next to a woman (my age), I asked, "Is that a good book?" and oh my! That opened a door to such a nice conversation. We both preferred morally decent books and shared the types of books we enjoy. It was like speaking to one of you, my friends!
I highly recommend doing this if you find yourself in a waiting situation, etc. It's something I've always wanted to try and am happy I finally did.

Lately? I meet people nearly everyday and can offer them so little, but! I can give them kind words. Compliment their clothing. Or be the tiny waiting room comedienne Or encourage the lab techs to appreciate their youth or thank the wheelchair pushers for their kindness or have conversations with folks who look sad, etc. Our words can change lives and may I never forget that no matter how tired I'm feeling.

Must thank you again for your prayers! I returned to the chemo room for a Keytruda and magnesium treatment and for the first time, ever, I walked up there by myself, no wheelchair needed. Three hallways and an elevator! And my legs no longer felt like someone else's faulty ones.
What a miracle and a reminder that many trials are for a season and not to be viewed or feared as lasting forever.
Thanks again to each of you!



Then there was the beautiful 'Doctor Zhivago Woman' in the waiting room. A tad younger than me, she wore full make-up (none of the rest of us did), a beautiful winter outfit and a long, silver ponytail. What a delight each time I saw her (of course I complimented her that first time.).

In fact, I became good at sharing compliments, but only if I truly meant them. You know, so to be genuine.

One time, as I searched for a restroom, a doctor alone in the long hospital hallway asked, "Looking for freedom?" (I still smile about that.)


My neighbor, Sue, did our laundry. Tom drove me all those many miles, for months, over the Buffalo thruway and also, washed hundreds of dishes. Naomi often cleaned our kitchen while we were at appointments. Our carpet guy (who'd not been here in years) only charged half. A friend sent me a pot with a tiny rose bush, another friend baked us brownies and my sister mailed a soothing care package. (See my last post for more kindnesses.)

On my birthday, a gigantic rainbow hung over us on the drive home. We had lots of sunny, snowless days and many Aldi deliveries to our door, plus lunch deliveries as well--how wonderful to not need to run out shopping for these, especially on days I felt exhausted.

So there you go--many of the blessings which, to me, felt like miracles in the midst of storms. And always the goodness and protection of Almighty God, Himself. He is so good.








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** Some of you asked me to share my treatments, so for you, here you go:


External radiation
Internal radiation
Chemotherapy (in case you wondered, yes, I still have my hair. Altho' it is thinner these days.)
MRI's
CT scans
PT scans
Blood transfusions
Keytruda and magnesium treatments (still have Keytruda treatments monthly)
Biopsies
... and a port placed in my lower shoulder/chest for IV's and taking blood rather than using my arms. I've come to really appreciate that port, although I've never looked closely at it. Yick.




"If God put a Goliath in front of you, He knows there's a David inside of you."   --- copied



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Please remember: My posts are always about more than they appear to be. 

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 "For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15