"Oh taste and see that the Lord, He is good. Blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him." ... Psalm 34:8
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." ... Jeremiah 29:11
Friday afternoon I sat at our dining room table while paying our bills-- and cried.
No, not because we couldn't afford to pay them, but because we could. And--
The sun shone gold on the huge trees outside our windows.
Come Saturday Morning played on our radio.
Naomi was home, upstairs, happy. Her second visit this year when usually she's allowed just one.
Tom was at a good-paying job doing something he's dreamed of for decades.
We'd just returned from a long-awaited train trip, our first vacation in five years. We'd seen beautiful sights galore, but also, my gratitude for being home spilled over.
We'd been able to attend Tom's mom's Life Celebration 2,500 miles away.
We'd visited with relatives on both sides of our family, some which we'd not seen in five or seven or more years. I even met my nephew's wife for the first time. Oh, and Tom's sister, her daughter and children visited us for the first time, ever, in August.
We'd found a loving sitter for our cats from just across the street(!) Sally's daughter, Sue, who pet-sits as a side job, even.
Tom and I are nearly prepared as can be for The End of Normal Life as The U.S. Knows It. We are encouraged and not afraid. Excited by these End Times, not pessimistic, bitter or sarcastic.
It felt ominous, really, the good kind, and I think my tears came from seeing God's hand so obviously.
How, within some weeks, He'd put our house in order, emptied my bucket list and--if I died tomorrow--I'd have no regrets. Or if I remain during the drastic times I believe the U.S. faces, that is fine, also. Honest.
As long as I have Him (and obey His wisdom) Life will be good because He is.
Suddenly on Friday, God's attention to detail, His care for us, His guidance, felt like overwhelming grace which sticks in your throat (and hurts while simultaneously feeling oh-so-delicious).
Face it: our own will is flawed. Doesn't see The Big Picture. But God's will does and when we follow Him down the road? We understand His Opposite World better, how it's a planet where:
The first will be last.
He who serves is greatest.
To see, we must first believe.
To receive, we must first give.
And as Jackie Gleason used to always say, "How sweet it is!" How sweet it is to live more inside that unseen-by-most Opposite World than the one we've all seen and have found sorely lacking.
“And if you faithfully obey the voice of the Lord your God, being careful to do all his commandments that I command you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, if you obey the voice of the Lord your God. Blessed shall you be in the city, and blessed shall you be in the field. Blessed shall be the fruit of your womb and the fruit of your ground and the fruit of your cattle, the increase of your herds and the young of your flock. Blessed shall be your basket and your kneading bowl. ..." ... From Deuteronomy 28
Oh! And please don't write off a train trip yet (as some of you have). Next time I'll tell you about the 'bedrooms'. They are better.