So there I was down in the basement with my face against our new washing machine's top. Trying not to cry. "Why is this happening? All of this?" I whispered.
The machine wouldn't fill. After lining up the settings, I pressed the start button, yet only a bit of water trickled in, then stopped. Tried it again, same thing.
And that's when I leaned upon the machine, wanting to crumble. These past 4 weeks! The exhaustion, the coughing, hearing loss, uti, fibroid issues, bad outside air quality (so no sitting outside to heal), trying to keep up with housework, 3 weeks of men tearing out our street to repave it, the loss of all but my indoor tomato seedlings, my laptop threatening suicide, and that very morning Tom awoke with excruciating hip pain --
But God reminded me of the beautiful moments.
Help for weeks from Tom and Naomi. A card and letter from a friend. Facebook messages wishing me well and lots of folks there praying for me. Last week when Tom and Naomi oversaw the entire washing machine installation and carry-away. The days we had sunshine and others with rain for my gardens. And what did we do before helpful Youtube videos?
I lifted my head. Eyed that start button then pushed it one more time. Poof! It began filling normally.
Oh, how times like these dip us down to the deepest pools of gratitude. So deep, that we learn to view everything (everything) through eyes made new by all that gratitude water.
Whew.
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For the record, our former washing machine was 20 years old and I'd babied it along for months. I specifically asked Tom to order a very basic machine as much like the old one as possible, but there are still a few too many little green lights on it for my liking.
Oh, and I am feeling much better from that virus, maybe 85%. Thanks if you prayed for me. You'll never know how much I appreciate it.
Please pray for Tom. He's going to try sitting very still this weekend then see his acupuncturist next week.
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To give you an example of how badly I felt, I finished reading only one book last month! My goal is eight. Plus I bought two new middle grade books, but have not even opened them. So unlike me!
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Clinging to this one, trust me! --
'They' say not to talk about illness--and to an extent I agree when it's the only thing one speaks of. Yet if no one ever shares this stuff then others will think everybody else is feeling great and they, themselves, are alone in their hard times.
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"For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses." ... Matthew 6:14,15
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Oh Debra, I feel your pain. I have chronic back issues which are normally managed with monthly chiropractor visits. Ten days ago I was making the bed and my lower back gave out. I couldn't walk, sit, bend or stand. I have been to the chiropractor 4 times since then. Each time I think. Ok all is well and then, the simplest movement sets it off again. I have been really impatient. Really Lord? You just want me sitting around doing nothing?! I was supposed to be starting a new job last week. Oh the lessons I'm learning. 🙂 Praying you will be 100% soon and Tom will improve.
Oh Debra! Of course you need to share when things aren't great. How else would we know to pray specifically for healing? I wish our washer didn't come with so many bells and whisles but it was in our condo when we moved in. I won't complain and it's worked well so far. I so glad that yours is now working again.
You've had a rough month for sure. I've been prayign for you and will keep it up. I go for injections in my back next week and again next month. If they work, the plan is to do an ablation on the nerves in my back. I'm praying that will relieve the spasms I've had for years. It's really limited my being able to do things. I've gained way too much weight and so I'm very hopeful that the shots will work for me.
Happy 4th of July my friend.
Blessings and hugs,
Betsy
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