A History With God

Ok. I've become addicted to my library-borrowed DVD's of Joan of Arcadia. I admit it.

And yet, there's one thing that bothers me about the episodes I've watched. It's the way that Joan is nearly always frustrated or angry with God.

And hey--I've had my moments of frustration with God--trust me! Lots of them in the last 30 years. And yet, that's what they were--moments. Not days and weeks and months. Not the 24/7 kind of frustration or anger or confusion. And I have never called God, "Jerk" as Joan did in one episode. 

I wouldn't dare.

There is a reverential fear and awe of God, you know, and never could I  call God negative names.

Babies and children grow up accusing their parents of knowing nothing. They believe their parents stop loving them when they correct them or do certain things which they, the children, do not understand. Babies and children shake their fists at their parents and scream at them when their frustration reaches the highest peaks.

But after growth,time and history, children grow-up. They awaken to a day where suddenly, what their parents did makes sense.

At least, they should. It's called maturing.

And in our walk and life with God we should grow, also, because we're gaining a history with Him. A history where we gaze backward, glimpsing where we've come from and Who brought us this far--and what it took for Him to get us to this new place. 

A history which taught us, finally who the things God did made sense.

Or if a few things still don't make sense, our level of trust of God's goodness and justness and perfection should be growing day by day to where we find ourselves trusting instead of screaming and accusing and venting.

The peace should be increasing because the trust is increasing.

And maybe it is, afterall, our pride which, through our time and history and watching of God, is what gets brushed away, in layers, from our eyes. And then we are able to see things from His point of view. Well, at least partially.

And maybe that's why it can be said of some people that they truly have their Father's eyes.



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"As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield
for all who take refuge in him." ... Psalm 18:30