Anticipation!

Oh boy, oh boy! Today is the final day of January and we are due for 50 sunny, luscious degrees. Wow.

And you know what? Maybe, just maybe, God will ask me someday in Heaven, "Debra, do you remember that glorious January 31st I sent you in 2012?"

And well, I want so much to be able to say, "I certainly do! I got outside, fed the birds, picked up downed branches and drove to the supermarket with a fistful of coupons for nearly-free stuff and I pushed my cart to the 1940's music, smiling at everyone who looked at me. 

And I kept remembering the gorgeous northern harrier you sent me the day before (along with the free dozen Cafe Escapes K-cups I got in the mail) and the way Naomi came to open birthday gifts and eat lemon meringue pie that evening."

That surely sounds so much better than replying, "No, don't recall that day. That was when I worried because Tom's unemployment insurance would run out at the end of February which would be the same weekend Naomi would move to Tennessee so far away. And I was concerned about all the water seeping into our garage and wondering how we could pay to improve that whole situation in the Spring and I also remember fearing we'd get majorly socked by the snow in February which we did not get in January.

Uh, no. I so don't want to stand there and tell Him that! No, at nearly 53 I'm learning I can choose my thoughts. 

My emotions only have the power I give them and for too many years they dragged me around by the neck. Well, no more. Instead, when I worry, I now get very firm with myself and tell myself to knock it off. To choose faith, instead. To ask God what I should do, if anything.

Then continue thinking about honorable things of a good report.

And if there's anything I know for certain it's that today God will watch to see just how I'll use this sunny, 50 degree day gift He's giving me. I can barely wait to see that, too!



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My very favorite Andy Williams song ever.  I remember being 17 and falling upon my bed to stare at the ceiling through dreamy eyes whenever this song came on the radio. Ahh... happy sigh.


"And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?" ... Luke 12:26


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