Well, Grace must be all over me to move away because already--in just one day--I have two large boxes of books ready to take to that tiny (run-on-the-honor-system) book cabin in Childs, NY. Two boxes!
And yesterday we got rid of my curbside-blessing leather Ralph Lauren chair and I moved a bistro set from our front porch to our patio. And cleaned and decluttered and--
Only with much Grace can I accomplish those sorts of things.
And then this morning Kristi's comments to my last post echoed so perfectly what I've meditated upon for two weeks:
"But it calls for putting too much energy into the work of the farm, and I think you need your energy in other places..."
Exactly!
While preparing for our Nevada friends' visit I wanted so much to finish fun decorating projects inside the house, yet my tiredness from all the yard work interfered. And that got me thinking--is a huge yard where I want to spend the bulk of my energy? Do I want to be a slave to a farm--really?
My answers, uh-oh, all came in various forms of, "No."
Truthfully? I'd rather be creative inside the house. And read good books. Take long, fun drives with Tom. Write in this blog and perhaps write a book. Grow a small garden. Maybe do some volunteer work and invite friends over to 'get away from it all,' being more concerned with their welfare than my own energy depletion.
And yesterday I finally became brave enough to make a choice which better fits me.
What a relief. Already I'm feeling less overwhelmed--and considering moving involves such stress--well, that's surely saying something! Facing moving to a whole other state, readying and selling this house and all that goes with that--at this moment--sounds more like a stroll in the park than running this farm for another year.
You realize God's often behind such a nonsensical thing when a person feels that crazy way, don't you? ツ
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"A man's steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand his own way?" ... Proverbs 20:24
(Or as the New Living Translation says, "The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?")
Thanks so very much for your understanding comments! I appreciate them ever so much.
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A question...
ReplyDeleteWhat would happen,
If just for one day,
You gave yourself credit,
For your decisions?
Give the credit to your mind,
working as it is designed to work,
and thinking clearly,
and coming up with what's best for you?
One day...
Just,
One,
Day...
Would anything *explode*?
If you felt good,
because of your own common sense
and wise decisions?
-sigh-
Sorry, Aunt Amelia. I lived by my own ideas for 34 years so been there, done that. But now I want only to be led by God, certainly not by my own head.....brrr! Scary, scary thought. I know that's hard for you to understand, but this is the way I choose to live my life--and for the past 18 years, it's been one remarkable way to live, indeed! Blessings, Debra
ReplyDeleteStay focused Debra, you are doing just great as long as you keep listening to the Lords urgings.
ReplyDeleteI remember my mom saying during their later years on a 16 acre farm that they were simply "slaves to the cows". Because of the cows they rarely went out of town and being we lived 5.5 hours away by freeway, we rarely saw them at OUR house. Thus my children grew up only seeing them 2-3 times a year. Their only bloodline grandchildren. We are feeling overwhelmed with our little less than an acre here...TOO much yard work. We have other "fish to fry". Tis wise to make changes in order to have the time to do what REALLY we need to be doing. Not that yardwork is wrong...depends on the people involved. Much best wishes for the move, the sale and the NEXT spot to dwell!!
ReplyDeleteBlessings, Elizabeth in NC
You see, the right decision happened and everything is falling into place. I am very happy for you.
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time... good to do what you are compelled to do, one day at a time. What's going on around my house? My out of work hubby has been recently compelled to FIX all the "little" things that would make our house harder to sell! Yes, it's at the expense of him not being online, trying to find jobs, all day long. But, I see this as a compelling push to prep for the life that is just around the corner. Getting eggs in one basket. Seemingly, so are you and Tom!
ReplyDeleteThere is such a peace in that simple phrase "let go and let God" - especially in a decision as big as this one. He's helped you and Tom come to the conclusion that selling is right for you...now you can just let it all fall into place and see where you end up next! Sounds like a great adventure, with God as your guide :) We'll be watching to see where He takes you guys next!
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way....I need some guidance from Above and it's telling me to put my house for sale...It's telling me: Move on, don't look back.
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I want to thank each of you for your encouragement and your great stories! I appreciate your taking the time to let me know you're in my corner and that some of you are in similar circumstances at this time. Thanks so much! Blessings, Debra
ReplyDeleteDebra, I'm excited to see where God leads you next. And so happy you're trusting Him for the journey. No better way to live! It blows my mind that I've "followed" you through three homes, and now I'll maybe get to see you work your magic on a fourth! All God's blessings on this next chapter of life!
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