Wow. The difference between how I feel today and last Tuesday is indescribable. But I'll try to explain anyway.
Remember how cranky and moody I was in this post? Well, since Friday (or so) I've again fallen in love with the majority of my house and yard. And even the parts which I don't like, appear more like creative challenges rather than nagging ol' problems.
I've had energy, peace and contentment galore.
What brought about these changes you ask? Lots of things, I believe, and here are some, in no special order:
1.) I highly recommend blogging about when you're feeling down. Why? Because people will know you need prayer and they'll pray for you. I believe it's satan who wants us to stay all bottled up, alienated and miserable. After all "you have not because you ask not." And too, there's this:
"Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed." ... James 5:16
For years I was the "just let me wallow in muck alone, ok?" type. But no more (why would I return to that?) A very special thanks to each you who prayed for me!
2.) When Tom returned to work, we stopped eating out and eating junk and I returned to cooking healthy stews, soups and even snacks. I've used foods from our own garden and orchard and oh my goodness! When will I finally get it ? When will I once and for all remember that if I want to feel great I have to eat great? Sheesh.
3.) Autumn arrived in August. We've experienced the most glorious, cool autumnal days you ever dreamed, slants of light which remind you of your best childhood days. The annoying heat vanished and daily highs in the 60's and 70's arrived instead. Like I said, glorious.
4.) I read The Shack and it helped shake doldrums which attach themselves to us so we forget how extremely loving and joyful God is and how Jesus came to set us free from ourselves and the world's junk. What a book! What a reminder of all we are and have in Him.
And that's about it. Not huge stuff, but big enough to snap me out of whatever it was dragging me around by neck. Hooray and hallelujah.
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Really happy to hear all this, Debra! And eating right is soooo important. Maybe you can cook extra and freeze some of those homemade things to eat when Tom is on vacation? I am slowly getting back to this myself after nearly two years. Tomorrow I leave for Germany with my daughter Alice, sil Mike and grandson Nathan who is going to be in my nephew Christof's wedding in Heidenheim. I will see Paul's oldest sister Isa, and oldest brother Franz, the Jesuit, whom I haven't seen for four years.......And other dear relatives and friends. Be back on the 11th. Don't think I will have much internet access while there.
ReplyDeleteI second your hooray and hallelujah! Glad to hear that today isn't yesterday...thank goodness it never is!
ReplyDeleteI could use your prayers today...
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear you are feeling better, Debra.
ReplyDeleteWhat do you mean "not huge stuff"? To know one's self and what one needs to maintain a happy & satisfying life is HUGE! You did good and thanks for sharing your feelings, good or bad. How can we "help" if we don't know there's a need? You will continue to be in my prayers and thoughts. Have a simply wonderful day :-)
ReplyDeleteI am so GLAD you are feeling better!
ReplyDeleteI have just discovered your blog and cannot tell you how much your thoughts have helped me. I have been feeling SO guilty and selfish for God has given me all my dreams (a darling old cottage on 60 acres of land) and ....... three years down the track ....... I have been complaining because I cannot cope with a) the cold b) the mess and c) the lack of money to do anything with it all. I have been in ANGUISH over my appalling attitude. Now, I read about a darling woman of God called Debra - about her love for Jesus ........ her 'friend' called Grace...... her conversations with God and I realise that I too can snip away at those wrong thinkings and start again. I appreciate you writing from your heart more than words can say. I think I may even start blogging!!!!
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