Thursday, February 22, 2007
Traveling With The Good Twin
So there I was during my Nevada Years living the worst days of my life. Well, some of the worst. But it wasn't all poor ol' Nevada's fault (no, really).
It was mine. And Condemnation's. You know who he is, right? He's Conviction's evil twin.
I mean, there I sat in the Nevada desert broiling inside a mobile home (or freezing inside it during icy winters) and whenever my conscience would kick-in after I'd...
a. complain for the zillionth time about living in this horrid, God-forsaken desert,
b. long for hours to be someplace else,
c. hold grudges against people at church who weren't being nice enough to poor me,
d. whine to Tom about his being away 4 days out of every 8 (due to his job 100 miles away),
e. all of the above and way more...
...Condemnation would plop down beside me and darkly tease, "You messed-up! Again. You cannot help it. You will never change. The people in your life will never change. You will always live in this desert and you will always be unhappy and so you deserve to feel miserable... go for it! And now God is mad at you so you'll need to be extra-good this week so He'll love you again. But good luck with that."
That stupid evil twin! He thinks he's so cool. So logical. So right.
But then there's Conviction. He has just one thing in common with Condemnation and perhaps that's what confuses most people. Conviction, too, sits down beside you and whispers, "You messed-up."
But that is where all similarities end.
Because following that sentence, Conviction tells you, "You do not have to continue messing-up. I am here to change your heart if you'll let me. There is enormous hope for you to overcome this! If you will apologize, admit you cannot do this on your own-- then I will guide you, lead you and show you a better way. So it's up to you--are you ready to move ahead?"
And if you accept his terms, you move on. You walk forward.
You go places, too, with Condemnation. Dark, scarey places with mirey floors which trap your feet. It's all rather like a city of deep pits in a vast, always-nighttime place.
But I prefer traveling with Conviction. You never know where He'll take you, but you know there will be Light and Life and the direction will always be forward.
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation (no adjudging guilty of wrong) for those who are in Christ Jesus, who live [and] walk not after the dictates of the flesh, but after the dictates of the Spirit."
"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him."